Heartbreaks

Today my Grace had to experience her first real heartbreak. And it is safe to say that I am definitly practicing the art of mourning with those who mourn. Gracie's best friend (and really only non-relative friend) is moving away. Her parents are divorcing and Mikayla will be living in CA with her dad. She will come back to Oregon for holidays and Summer and her mom and I hope to continue the girls friendship, but not having Mikayla at school is going to be very hard on Grace. When I first told her she took it alright. She said she was sad but left it at that. I tucked her in and said goodnight, went downstairs and cried. I went back up a little while later to check on her and sure enough, she crying quietly in bed. I picked her up (she is really big!) and just held her while we both cried. I asked if she wanted to ask her Daddy for a blessing which she did. He talked about the love we have from Heavenly Father and the love she has from her family and how we will always be there for her to comfort and protect her. After this she had calmed down and was ready for bed. I just cried some more. I have always had a hard time watching people hurt. I hurt right along with them, but this time, watching my child hurt, it was an entirely new level of suffering. I wished I could take it back. I wished that I could make Mikayla stay. Grace was lready really struggling with the idea of going back to school and now, her only good friend willnot even be there. She has always been a bit of a loner at school. Often playing by herself at recess and rarely talking about interactions with other kids. This was the case for preschool and kindergarten alike. In 1st grade though, she found Mikayla. She has mentioned other kids, but even tonight said "they don't play with me very much though because they other people they like to play with". I am desperately hoping this does not hurt her they way just the words hurt me. I hope, that hwen my heart sinks it is my own projections and not her reality. How am I supposed to make her go back? I already know she does not want to be there and the one person who she had a connection with will be missing. My little girl is hurting and I can do nothing to fix it and this, although she doesn't know it, is just the beginning.